the reset button.

Note: this post was written a week ago, wasnt able to upload photos then for some reason....

well... i'm on my bed now, jay's songs on another tab playing, my mind's trying to picture damai beach and deng throwing up; but my body's in bristol. haha. how frustrating is that. sometimes dont we wish we could "jump" to anywhere we wanted. =) soooo... i've been in the uk now for around 3months, the truth about me not blogging so often(or not at all) is coz i dont really have anything to blog about. ><

Given a choice, would you follow the flow or stand out and make a difference to the people around you? touchy touchy eh? this is a hit or miss situation. PEER PRESSURE is very very real; to the people we choose to mix with and even to the extent of what type of clothes we wear. many might think that these are just superficial things; but we will get singled out for the choices we make. Coming to a different country has really made me question my views on certain things and even brought upon a different mindset.. but how do we know whether this is the real deal or not? i guess time and lessons learnt will reveal all. people will never be what they seem; and this really has made me treasure all the people who're close to my heart. *might sound gay to some of u fuckers out there* but i love u all. u guys have made me who i am today and things like this dont go away easily. being away from all the things that have been familiar has given me the chance to start anew, i realised that i could be anyone i wanted in this new country, a second chance, a new face, whatever we call it.. stuff like this doesnt come around often, grab it by the balls and make the most of it.

alright then.. i'm done here. enjoy the pictures. =) xxxx

cheers.

1. somewhere near Temple Meads. (train station)

2. along Highstreet..

3. Promenade.

4. not sure what car.. but very nice.

5. MALIBU!!!!

6. busy day at Cabot Circus

7. POND.DUCKS

9. First signs of winter

" When trees are laid bare and the wind chills,

winter comes with lots of thrills!! "

10. Ben and Tom

11. Ash, Liam, Me, Tay

Bristol, United Kingdom, PINWEI

Alright.. so its been a month and a week that i've left Kuching and probably a lot longer since i updated this blog of mine. Firstly, to keep all of u guys up to date about me here: UK is about a 14 hour flight from KL. I met quite a few asians on the flight, one of whom i got along with pretty well. =) *and its a girl* The very good thing about using going on international flights is that they serve u alcohol on board. and me being the asshole that i sometimes am, had a few glasses of wine and abit of cognac. hahahaha. SO by the time i reached London, i was feeling happy. =). Took the train from London Heathrow to Cardiff to arrange my sisters stuff. After all that, i went to Bristol and here i am now.

MY ADDRESS IS: 19 VICTORIA PARK, FISHPONDS, BRISTOL, BS162HJ. LETTERS WILL BE VERY MUCH APPRECIATED. lol

The weather here is horrible because its perpetually cold for malaysians. about single digits nowadays coz its nearly the end of autumn. ><

OKAY, so i'm currently having my school holidays now. half-term break. for about 11days.. woke up at around 1030 today, had brunch and went out to buy some stuff.. will go out later in the evening to see whether are there jobs around the area...

Pictures:

randomness.

i have a friend. at times she may be stubborn, TEMPERAMENTAL, childish, *u get the picture* =D
but she's one of those rare people that i seldom come across and one whom i'll really really treasure until we eventually kick the bucket.

Eventhough when i mean the truth, she takes it as something else *smiles*
i'll say that we've been through quarrels, laughter, pain, so on so forth; there were times where i wished the choices i took could be undone but thinking about it, if i never took those steps, i'd not have these feelings for u now. =) so i guess its both a blessing and a curse.

i am myself. i choose to live life to the fullest. i thank you for waking me up at those crossroads; eventhough you can be kinda harsh at times.. friends i have many, but those that i trust will always be little. it ain't easy opening up to people that u think u know, but end up getting knifed in the back. we take our chances in life, be it good or bad, you'll never know what u might end up getting in the end. i know that people have a variety of opinions about me. i have been on the receiving end of life's many surprises, but hey? who hasn't? theres always this lifelong dream of everyone to find someone who we can really relate to without the fear of rejection or discrimination. but hell, thats even harder then flying. =x

i look in the mirror. my reflection tells me to keep going strong. be the person you've always been. keep it that way. i daresay that i have been a leader all this while.. but for the first time in my life, i feel disoriented and the road ahead of me aint no walk in the park, and i'm sure that there are so many others out there feeling that way.. A pat on the back for you, and i promise that i'll be there to keep u going when you stumble. i draw strength from people around me. losing any one of them will be devastating.. look around us. how many people have we hurt along the way to get where we are today.. i sincerely apologize to those whom i've struck nerves with. but remember that realizing the error of our ways leads to the growth of character.

A final thankyou and my feelings of gratitude to those who've stood by me through thick and thin; especially those whom i'm close with. i'd never have become the person today without lessons learnt from the past.

G JMTC WMS JMRQ

cheers.

i'm bored...

First of all, this post is taken from cedric; and was edited by me. For those that don't know him, go read his blog at www.mochaspot.blogspot.com i have the feeling that he'll keep you entertained very much. =)

YOU'RE TAGGED IF U READ THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What guys think about the opposite sex.

When I say I'm confused, I'm confused
When I say yes, I mean yes
When I say I hate you I mean I hate you
When I say No, I mean No
When I say I'm bored I mean i'd like to see acts of stupidity and laugh my head off at those.
I NEVER say I'm moody. (unless moody=emo. then thats a different thing.)
When I say I love you, I really do.
When I say you smile is sweet, it means it'll give people diabetes
When I say you's good-looking, you must be DAMN HANDSOME.
I never say i heart u
When I say I'm freezing, I mean I'm freezing.
When I say good luck, I mean good luck
When I say I like you, I mean I like you.
When I say it's not important, I mean it's not important (why keep bloody asking?).
When I say dunno how, it means i dont want to reply you
When I say I'm in love, I'm probably itching for pain. AGAIN
When I say I wanna buy new stuff, I mean I wanna buy new stuff.
When I say I'm crying, I'm gay.
When I say you rock, I mean you airport.
When I say my results suck, I mean my results suck.
When I say I'm stupid, don't say anything. LAUGH. OR I WILL MAKE U LAUGH.
When I say something stupid, say something stupid with me. =)
when I say I miss you, I probably did, and i will miss u when i see u.
When I say dude, I think you're bisexual.
When I say dun feel like doing it, it means many things. (most of them depend on the chore given Work/manual labour=nono Things that are pleasurable=you think i want to do or not??)
when I say I want to see you, it means I want to see you in the bedroom.
When I say ish, I mean ish.
I never say whatever.
When I say you're sombong, I mean you are. And i'd like to introduce your nose to chopstick.
When I say I want to see cute guys, punch me. Bobok was entrusted the task of punching me.
When I say I hate that nickname, I mean I hate that nickname.
When I say go die larh, I mean go die larh. *adds* or u want me help u?
When I say F***, I can mean many many many things.
I never say muaks
When I say I'm tired, I mean I'm tired.
When I'm quiet, sometimes there's something to it, but mostly nothings wrong.
When I say it's a secret, I mean it's a secret
When I say I hate my home, I mean I hate my home
When I say I'm innocent, *flash smile*
When I say that guy is cute, i am gonna experience pain if Bobok is there.
When I got nothing to say, I mean I've got nothing to say.
When I give you advise, buy me a beer,ham,drinks,food,and all other material fun-inducing stuff.
When I say I love Nicholas Teo, kill me, castrate me and drown me.
When I say she is not pretty, I mean KNNCCBTIUNIAMACHAOHAI she's not pretty. *vomits*
When I say OMG, I mean OMG
When I say I hate badminton, dont keep asking me who won the match.
When I say hello, I mean hello. (but hello could mean lots of things....) ngehehe. *rubs hands*
When I stare at you, ask me why. your face might be funnie then. haha.
Why would I say I'm lesbian?
When I say, means this it is the end of this post.

*thanks cedric for the original post*

CHeers.

woohoo!! ^^

well well well, its been awhile since i last posted anything. so yeah. here goes.

i went to Damai yesterday with a group of buddies. some had to skip class to get there, others had to take detours from the state library. *ahem ahem* but anyways, we reached there, headed off to the beach, sat for awhile, decided that it was hot, and went to cool off. =) Damai has always been fun. memories, fun, sand, laughter, GIRLS, etc... and yeah, turns out that yesterday was holiday season or something for tourists and i'll leave the scenery to your own imagination. hehe.

The Cast: Pheebs, Ren, Jasmin, Eileen, MeiYing, Lik, Siang, and me.

Before anything happened.

After dipping.

yeah. after the beach the guys headed for the swimming pool.. we saw some hot asian/jap/korean chick sunbathing. O.O *inserts drooling and inappropriate behaviour*
dipped for a while and we decided to get out. we camwhored abit and headed off to the lobby.

THE DIVAS...

THE GUYS...

<<< the cutest couple




LALALALALALALALALALALALA

THE BEST BUDDY ^^^

After all that, we headed to BUNTAL for dinner...


Food was good. Company was good. Scenery was good.
what more could one ask for~ =)

CHEERS.

(p.s: in case anyone is wondering, i didnt get any numbers la. the text bubbles are purely fictional)

emo am i, i am emo...

emonemo emonemo emonemo emonemo. yup, good words to describe my feelings now. imagine spaghetti wound around a chopstick, then u swing swing swing it around while defying the laws of physics and u see the strands whip around. (but mind u, the spaghetti does not fly off the chopstick.) turmoil. washing machine. lalalalalalala~

YES. I AM EMO RIGHT NOW. SO SUE ME. >.<

no cheers for this post. =(

You Are An ENTP

The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression. You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything. Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off. You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. In love, you see everything as a grand adventure. You enjoy taking risks for love. And if things don't work out, you're usually not too much worse for the wear! You would make a great entrepreneur, marketing executive, or actor. At work, you need a lot of freedom to pursue your own path and vision. How you see yourself: Analytical, creative, and peaceful When other people don't get you, they see you as: Detached, wishy-washy, and superficial

What's Your Personality Type?

To be or not to be...

the night was long.. the sudden urge to pick up his phone and send that text message to her was unbearable. Pausing for a few moments, his fingers worked deftly, pressing each of the buttons. at the final text, he paused again. thoughts were running through his head; this wasnt the person he was.. usually he'd stick with his opinions till the very end, but somehow this time it felt different. he knew his intentions were good, just wanting to play a part in someones life. however he was shunned at the worst possible minute. a world of darkness enveloped him. he sat there closing his eyes and expected the worst from her. the first reply was okay. however, rejection became more and more evident in the 2nd and 3rd messages. it seems that time spent together was not time spent at all.. 2 strangers wif mutual attraction towards each other. Was it lust? love? ignorance? or just impulsiveness. promises that were made in the beginning were sweet. promises made in the beginning made him warm and fuzzy inside.

Tragedy struck. dreams and hopes were shattered. at first he felt as if this was just something along the way. bit by bit she grew on him. her smile, the way she laughed, time spent with her was time treasured.. he began to look forward to seeing her. at the time where he himself was getting attached; it broke. that fragile link between him and her was yanked apart. Perhaps he just didnt see it coming..

I believe that we only live once in this world. roads and paths are there to be marked with our presence. Be it in someones life or in the world, we all have our part to play as long as we live. Friends who bring joy, laughter and tears come and go. sometimes saying goodbye is the best thing to do at that time. but bear in mind that with every step we take, there will always be repercussions and consequences. Regret is always hard to swallow. But sometimes it is a very good teacher. Contradictions and paradoxes are all around us, from the verses that we use to the actions we do; we are chained to it. I believe that humans are very fragile beings. but it is the fragility of a person that shines and touches the hearts of people. Many of us prefer to stay behind a barbed exterior, unwilling to allow people into our lives.. Loneliness is crippling. We were made for fellowship..

Treasure the things we have now for once they're gone, they're gone. thanks for the memories and smiles you've gave me. for i have learnt a lot from this relationship, and i hope you have too.

Cheers.

SIBEH SOI..... =(

haiz... so soi last nite. i was driving back from siawching's birthday dinner when halfway at foochow road my car tyre pong ki. -.-" at first i thought the sound coming from the rear end of my car was from the motorcyclist near me but after closer inspection i realized that the rear tyre condemn ki... lol. stopped at the roadside and called koko to help.. spent Rm220 on both rear tyres today. my wallet is bleeding dy. =(

anyways. went out again this afternooon wif buddy and kelvin.. i seriously need to pump gas for my car's aircon. the freakin' thing is like a sauna. hehe.

this is a picture of me and BOb. buddy's doggie. she wants to name it hobbes though~ *ahem*

gonna study for bio quiz later.. then tomorow nite go out wif friends for fun. =)

Cheers~

hmmmm.. =)

* the pic above was on the 14th of june. SIawChing's birthday at EnterK. hate my hair. T.T *



haha! went out wif kelvin and liu today... very fun. brought kelvin to cut his hair and brought them to shisha at little lebanon. lol. weather wasnt that agreeable wif us today, rained heavilly while we were halfway enjoying.. owells, at least i got some information on my friend's lives in KL. they're still the same old as*holes i've known and remembered them for. =)

yesterday news of my classmate who passed away reach my ears.. felt really shocked that he's left us. eventhough i didnt really get to know him that well, i hope that he's at peace now. *bows head*

moving on... form6 is really challenging lor, especially addmx. T.T dun understand de.. had some Leo meeting in school just now and i'm wondering y bobok didnt come to school for the past 2 days, hope everything's ok..
GOnna sleep now. Nites everyone~

Cheers.

KNNCCB... Hair so short still wan cut.

LOL. in reference to the title stated above, the school i'm studying in is getting more and more like a jailhouse. today got perhimpunan; after perhimpunan; pai dui body check; hair long stay inside; later kena cut; donwan kena cut puek wif teacher; puek not sucessful go home; kena send home still wan ask parents come; u think parents no need work ar? KNN...
but maybe i was a little too rude towards the teacher.. hmmm.. on 2nd thoughts, NO. =)
i mean, yes, u wanna follow wad is stated in the diary, but diary no say u can pull down the hair in front ler!!!??? so lidis no rules liaw lor, u wan how then how.. Wad type of school is this? plus somemore headmaster no hair.. Jealous ar? hahahahahahaha~
Hmmm... fast fast leave the school, stay there somemore also later become botak. Next time see ur kids kena cut untill suku suku ngongngong, see whether u like o not lo~

went to my friend's house just now for a short jamming session.. very fun.. got grand piano somemore. jiak jiak song. =) owells, continue next time. go school tomorow see wad the teacher say~

Cheers.

buddy sad... =(

well well well.. is love really that important to ppl? buddy told me lots of things in school today. (excluding those on msn last nite) =).. but buddy seemed really down. yes i agree that there are these special people in out lives that can either make us fly or sink; but certaintly there is more to life then just worrying about these things eh? for me, i guess i'v had my fair share of relationships.. both good and bad. but from each relationship the lessons learnt are priceless, i guess my advice to them is to move on wif life, learn from it and GROW.

last nite i recieved a call from a friend.. she's also been having lots of problems lately.. funny eh, i tend to get all the problems but no happy news. -.-" So, i have come to the conclusion that girls are VERY VERY VERY VERY RANDOM. one minute this the other minute that.. i wont elaborate bout wad happened recently to me but i'm wishing teddy the best.. i just wanted to make u understand wad went wrong wif us, but u got me wrong and thought i was scolding u... sheesh. sometimes things aren't wad they seem, distance is a problem, our future is a problem, money is a problem, feelings are the cause of all problems. lol. jkjk. errr... this is sounding like an essay already.. =)

miraculously, todae no homework from school... i like i like~ gonna go out later and have fun wif friends.. take care eh buddy, u still have so much to live for...

cheers.

Introduction...

owells, i finally started blogging... this is gonna be my first post so i'll make it short and simple.
first of all, life is all about memories, relationships, hardships, all the ships, etc etc.. just started form6 in st thom and the school's fcked up. rules here and there and everywhere... -.-''
i cant really feel my legs coz i just got back from an expedition, and MYGOD, jiak jiak SIAO. =)
memories memories~ haha. the power of drinks. lol.
gonna dye my hair black soon and go makan dy.. my buddy is feeling emo now but all i can do is wish buddy the best. hmmm.... thats all for now.

cheers.