To be or not to be...

the night was long.. the sudden urge to pick up his phone and send that text message to her was unbearable. Pausing for a few moments, his fingers worked deftly, pressing each of the buttons. at the final text, he paused again. thoughts were running through his head; this wasnt the person he was.. usually he'd stick with his opinions till the very end, but somehow this time it felt different. he knew his intentions were good, just wanting to play a part in someones life. however he was shunned at the worst possible minute. a world of darkness enveloped him. he sat there closing his eyes and expected the worst from her. the first reply was okay. however, rejection became more and more evident in the 2nd and 3rd messages. it seems that time spent together was not time spent at all.. 2 strangers wif mutual attraction towards each other. Was it lust? love? ignorance? or just impulsiveness. promises that were made in the beginning were sweet. promises made in the beginning made him warm and fuzzy inside.

Tragedy struck. dreams and hopes were shattered. at first he felt as if this was just something along the way. bit by bit she grew on him. her smile, the way she laughed, time spent with her was time treasured.. he began to look forward to seeing her. at the time where he himself was getting attached; it broke. that fragile link between him and her was yanked apart. Perhaps he just didnt see it coming..

I believe that we only live once in this world. roads and paths are there to be marked with our presence. Be it in someones life or in the world, we all have our part to play as long as we live. Friends who bring joy, laughter and tears come and go. sometimes saying goodbye is the best thing to do at that time. but bear in mind that with every step we take, there will always be repercussions and consequences. Regret is always hard to swallow. But sometimes it is a very good teacher. Contradictions and paradoxes are all around us, from the verses that we use to the actions we do; we are chained to it. I believe that humans are very fragile beings. but it is the fragility of a person that shines and touches the hearts of people. Many of us prefer to stay behind a barbed exterior, unwilling to allow people into our lives.. Loneliness is crippling. We were made for fellowship..

Treasure the things we have now for once they're gone, they're gone. thanks for the memories and smiles you've gave me. for i have learnt a lot from this relationship, and i hope you have too.

Cheers.